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i deleted it bc im self-conscious about the ammt of tabs I have open, BUT since im already on the way to doxxing myself i found out last night that portsmouth has a punk scene!!! epic!!!

im not like. planning on going out while it's not safe, especially since the way the UK is right now is. 0_0 and since i dont like the idea of doing so while I dont have. friends or aquaintances to go with,
but!!! it looks cool. might look into goth stuff as well :3


i deleted it bc im self-conscious about the ammt of tabs I have open, BUT since im already on the way to doxxing myself i found out last night that portsmouth has a punk scene!!! epic!!!

im not like. planning on going out while it's not safe, especially since the way the UK is right now is. 0_0 and since i dont like the idea of doing so while I dont have. friends or aquaintances to go with,
but!!! it looks cool. might look into goth stuff as well :3


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university website is down!.........swag


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(referring to the tags) is agenda the right word for it actually. i forget if agenda just means "rhetoric" in english or not hold on


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ok i meant "planner" dfgtngbccgbxv


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university website is down!.........swag


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(referring to the tags) is agenda the right word for it actually. i forget if agenda just means "rhetoric" in english or not hold on


I FORGOT TO POST THIS fbdfv here's that one AU doodle I did a while back but finished! I'm rlly happy with how it turned out tbh :3c


original audio by renissance_them on tiktok!!!
dfbd i wanted to play around with pencil2d and this is what came of it B)


NOT GOING TO LIE,,, ive been listening to a few hour long video essays on like. creators and parasocial relationships and im 👁️👁️. We Live In A Society

If you have the time and energy for it / usually do things while listening to stuff as a background and like long ass lefttube video essays I'd DEFINITELY recommend these two videos by StrucciMovies!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x3vD_CAYt4g
https://youtu.be/KLA-uFKjQ-g

like. WOW!!!! WOW!!!!!!! i am! going bonkers.


OH. actually if we DO end up needing to stay quarrantined for two weeks in fish and chips land, I can totally use up that time to watch and rewatch series ive been meaning to :} swag


you know that one image where its a person with a rotound ass looking away from the camera with the caption "everyone is so mean 2 me 💔"

thats wheatley portal 2


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yeah lullaby for a princess is pretty cool but have you ever stayed up at 5 am thinking about luna's lullaby / celestia's lament????? sobs (thats a link gfbdcv)


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one day ill just snap and make celestia and luna story themed ocs but better. you'll see O_O


yeah lullaby for a princess is pretty cool but have you ever stayed up at 5 am thinking about luna's lullaby / celestia's lament????? sobs (thats a link gfbdcv)


Feel like giving myself a gender crisis might watch good omens today


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hello gaymers. today i bring u clowncore circus baby. tomorrow? who knows...


hello gaymers. today i bring u clowncore circus baby. tomorrow? who knows...


also i just bought portal 1 gfcbdgnbcxv
like i've been watching portal speedruns as asmr as of late i KNOW the tests dfbfgbc I just want to be able to complete one of the games in a day when I feel like listening to glados fndb

And Also To Not Have To Listen To Wheatley Beforehand


piercing ment ahead!


my mom said i could get my ears pierced!!! :D!!!!!! I wanted to do my septum really badly but I'm going to have my nose bonked into place soon (really badly deviated septum) and it'd probably heal up if I tried to do it beforehand, so I'm really happy I can get my ears before!!! especially bc ill be able to get the tiny object sapphic earrings dxbxcv love those so much


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Hi is it ok if I dump my Rose Quartz angst frustrations on here. I have a lot


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These are going to be mostly just screencaps from my twitter priv BUT I'll comment on them if i feel like theres anything i need to reword gfndb!! ANYWAYS Click the read more to enter heck


OK this one isnt REALLY that angsty? It's just real :)

also this text post from @ arrozbrillante on tumblr


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Nevermind the copy pasting from Twitter I don't like what I wrote there anymore dfgbdgnbcfvxcv Anyways here's me rambling about Rose bc of neurodivergent coding and projection woooohooo


OH warning before you read all of this: None of this excuses the Real Harm PD/RQ caused those around her. The mess below is just me rambling abt a comfort character who is a BIG mess of a person and who fucked over a lot of people. I personally relate a lot to her but that doesn't mean you shouldnt dislike her!!!! Please don't feel obligated to read this if you do <:0

That out of the way, uhhh enjoy hell!!! I guess!!

TW: abuse ment!!

Thinks about how Rose Quartz was abused by the diamonds and locked in a light deprivation chamber (something that is very implied gems need to keep functioning) when she ""misbehaved"", and how she just hid behind the manufactured personas (RQ and PD) to hide her own passionate and jokey self that she was brought up to believe was inherently bad!!! And how she had this deep self-loathing her whole life because of the way the Diamonds disrespected her and treated her as inherently below them from the start of her life (a thought process she kept her whole life because she felt that "gems pop out of the ground like they are and stay like that forever" )!!!

And how this made it harder for her to relate and connect to other gems!!!! Like reading interviews abt the crew where they state that her love for everyone and everything was genuine but it was also sort of worship-y in the sense that she saw everyone else as so much better than her and how that caused her to feel like she couldn't connect with anyone!!!!!

WHICH IS ONLY MADE WORSE when you think about how she already struggled with empathy throughout her whole life (there's a quote somewhere about how Steven's empathy comes from Greg only but idk where to find it)

and with how she treats Greg in Story for Steven, and also these bits

that show that she understood she had trouble picking up on other people's emotions and (at least with Pearl) was trying to change for the better!!!!! AHHRHGH

Like. She never even learned how to deal with the outbursts she had whenever she was overwhelemed/frustrated, because she still has them as Rose (that one episode where she babysits Sour Cream).
We know she feels guilty about what she did to Volleyball because of the way she distances herself from Pearl at the beggining ( Pearl is still in the ""default settings"" (eugh) outfit), (which tbh might also be because she's afraid to get attached only for CG Pearl to get "taken away" by White Diamond, which Blue Diamond implies is what happened (or would happen) if PD lashed out again. Also because of this RS doodle!!!

Her RSD and self-loathing were so fucking bad she did AWFUL stuff (silenced Pearl and bubbled Bismuth) and created the Rose Quartz persona of the gem she really wanted to be, someone extremely kind and understanding (even when she couldn't understand people a lot of the time!!!!) and just projected her own self hatred and guilt onto "Evil Pink Diamond" (where Garnet's fake idea of Pink Diamond came from). ALL OF THIS IS JUST A BIG CYCLE!!! Feel bad -> Pretend to be an Idealized Yourself-> Backfires in some way -> Do bad thing -> Feel bad -> etc.

Like. Others thought of her as this "mysterious" figure BECAUSE she kept others away from her so that they wouldn't find out about who she "really" was out of fear everyone who she cared for and loved (and as seen above, she loved other gems a LOT), would realize she was a bad person all along and leave her behind (like :) the diamonds :) did :))

And that's. All she knew!!! Until Greg came along!!!!! GHHHHGH

ALSO this tumblr post abt why she gave up her form (link)!!! IS REALLY SAD :D

She just needs therapy so fucking bad oh mygofddd!!!!! Like. The way it's been implied by the crewniverse that Steven's thought processes in SUF are SUPER like his mother's.

Like. Was RQ an antagonist?? Yeah maybe!!!! She was very ignorant and her self-hate caused a lot of damage to the people around her. It just rattles my bones that she has a lot of neurodivergent traits and everyone treats her like she's this malign character that was Secretly Evil and Definitely Planned Everything Out Of Malice. Like no she's just. No thoughts head empty. Share if you dont think.

"Rose is always wall eyed, sad-eyed, even when smiling"


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Hi is it ok if I dump my Rose Quartz angst frustrations on here. I have a lot


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These are going to be mostly just screencaps from my twitter priv BUT I'll comment on them if i feel like theres anything i need to reword gfndb!! ANYWAYS Click the read more to enter heck


OK this one isnt REALLY that angsty? It's just real :)

also this text post from @ arrozbrillante on tumblr


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